Sunday, November 14, 2010

Getting back to it.

One of the things I seem to struggle with is maintaining a journalling practice, and looking at my life through tarot, when things get a bit overwhelming. This is when it is most beneficial, yet one of the first things to be ignored. So it's time for recommitting myself to these practices, and trying again.

Outer Energies-The Lovers VI
Aside from the obvious references, the Lovers represent making choices and living them. This is the theme for me lately. I've got to stand firm in my beliefs and actions in my mundane life, as well as spiritual and tarot practices. Some of these choices aren't easy, but the right ones for my life.

Inner Energies-Prince of Cups
Along with the Lovers guiding my choices, the Prince of Cups holds his chalice out in a salute of encouragement/strength. He wears a sober expression, as these are tough emotions I'm dealing with right now. They're painful memories of mistrust and being let down by those you should be able to trust and love, because they're family, and eating away at my trust in my own judgement, as well.

At times like these it is quite painful to not be able to depend on the people in your life. Lessons on trusting in myself, learning to take care of my own needs above theirs, are hard, and may in the long run, leave me alone again.


Sunday, November 7, 2010

Trimming and integrating-IDS Daily Draw

Outer Energies- Seven of Pentacles
Today's outer energies express exactly what I need to be doing. Harvesting, pruning, trimming away- things(including emotions) that no longer serve me in my life right now. Winter approaches and in order to do the things I need to do for myself, I have much to work on, eliminate.

Inner Energies- Two of Cups
Today this card speaks to me of integrating the feminine and masculine energies/traits in my inner life. Seeking strength, wisdom, grace and compassion to face the trials that lay ahead of me.

I'm not sure what-all I will be facing, not sure what way things will go or where that will leave me, or what I'll need to do. That's the tough part, I can't exactly prepare, other than building my inner strengths and reorganizing and decluttering my life. Yes, the possibility that I'll have to do it all over again is strong, so this could be lookked at as a practice run.....*sigh*

Monday, November 1, 2010

IDS Daily Draw, November 1st, 2010

Outer Energies- Seven of Pentacles
I love the beauty of this card. The druid apprentice harvests mistletoe from an oak tree on the Winter Solstice, with a golden sickle(knife). The seven pentacles are carved into the stone next to the oak tree. The sky behind the tree is an early morning bright.
Harvesting, trimming, pruning, and the wait from the Solstice onward for the light to gradually return. The strength of an oak tree, the tenacity of the mistletoe to survive, being a plant that grows in winter, when all other plants are at rest. These are things that come to mind when I see this card. It is a day for pruning some of the excess/unneeded out of my life. A time for patience, for letting the seed have the time it needs to grow and mature.

Inner Energies- The Lovers
The Lovers card signifies a joining, a choice to commit to something, as the lovers have committed to this act of love. Committing to this path I have taken my first steps on, is a major/tough decision for me. The loneliness and lack of companionship are painful for me, yet I feel these lessons have to be learned without the distraction/disappointment of trying to fit in and have social connections with others. And over the last day it has become clear that this is the way it will "simply" be, for now.